I have lost my mojo. It’s well and truly gone and it may have left the building for good. Not so good for a young gay man, but it’s the fact of matter. The loss of my mojo is not so much the sex drive element yet rather the ability to find anyone attractive or interesting. I simply don’t find any guy attractive.
Sure, there are the unattainable ones who have perfectly sculpted bodies, golden tans, square jaw lines and killer style that I think are hot, but they may as well have cheesy porn music playing in the background. I’m talking about guys who I would want to get into a relationship with. There is no attraction. And I am worried.
Am I cursed? Am I going through a sexual slump? Or is it purely that I just haven’t found anyone who is considered my equal? I’m not too sure, but I’m leaning to the slump side of things as I scroll through hundreds of singles profiles, I keep thinking the same thing “Eh, whatever…”
Or is it related back to something else? Did my unrequited love episode earlier this year strip me of any love or passion that I could have for anyone else? Am I actually still subconsciously holding onto those feelings and wanting it to come back with an actual result? I would say no as I know that love has well and truly extinguished with a DNR tag attached. But did it really kill my ability to find anyone else attractive? I have to wonder if it did.
So after regular nights of going out with friends to bars and hours checking out singles profiles, the may be blatantly obvious that I cannot even see it. My standards may be high, my expectations may not be realistically set or my understanding of relationships might be completely askew. The answers could be numerous.
Either way, the sex drive doesn’t exist and I need to find a way to get it back and unfortunately, unlike Austin Powers, I don’t have a time machine to send back to rescue it from the clutches of my personal Dr. Evil. Unless you know someone of course who does…